okay, you all know that when it comes to the 'woman game' guys think they know everything..but in reality, we dont know anything. (i'm admitting it, give me my cookie) anyway..... heres the question, with some background...bare with me...


My Junior year ('99) my life was falling apart....put in the middle with the parents divorce (if any of yall are going threw one, please dont put your kids in the middle...its easier said than done!!)...then on top of that my mom was getting remarried in july, so that was extra tough...

now yall might not belive in, "Gifts from God''...but i met this girl, she was a yr. older than i was, so she just grad. highschool.....now we went out for a year, and i (we) feel HARDDDDDDDD...i mean it was the ony thing that brought me up to reality during the 'dark ages' .... so it comes time where she had to go off to college 4 hrs. away...and we break up...it was the hardest time in my life...see my whole senior year, my live was so revolved around this girl, that i screwed around...so i was stuck at the community college after graduation... so we break up, and still to this day i think about her all the time....its sick...now i MUST SAY that i have came a LONG WAY since '00...for a year str8 i was a nervous wreck, couldnt eat, could't sleep..just cried every day....i know it might sound like im a weakling, and to an extent i was...but it was seriously like my whole life/happiness was snatched away from me and all i got back for 2.5 yrs was a bunch of teasing....i was her 'security blanket' so when anything happend to her she always called me to talk about it......i know i have been lead on for the past 3 yrs. it was like i was her 'summer home boy'...it was NEVER a intimate relationship, just words..and words mean more than anything...you say the right words to somebody, you can really hurt them ya know......

okay im blabbing on and on, and im sorry....

so she graduated in May, and she lives back in my town *sucks right, i dont go to certain bars, cuz she might be there, i try to stay around from the scene...i couldnt stand to see he with anybody, nor do i want to fall back into that trap again*....

but i was just driving around with a buddy..and she pulled out in front of us, and i saw her for the first time in a year, and MEMORIES flooded my mind...how bad i miss her/want her/love her...although she treated me like shit, we were both young, only 17-18.....but i can still say that i love her more than anything....

my question is.....do woman just forget about their ex's... i mean is something wrong for me to thin like this... is it natural...it just bothers me to think that im not thought of like i think of her, although i can't do anything about it...we havent talked since christmas of last year haha......

but....do you think she still remembers me/us/memories?

dont flame me on this, this is a heart talking here, that has a lot of questions but noone to answer them.

~Blake